His expression softens a bit -- goes a little sad.] Not everything is transactional, love. Sometimes I do things because I want to. Not because I expect you to pay me back.
No, no. [Another pause, then a shrug.] Well, I mean, I'm not opposed to medical kink, it can be fun.
Because it's a commitment. It's -- marriage level shit. [He smooths Iggy's hair back, thoughtfully.] But if you mean just -- kinkier things, I wasn't sure if you'd be interested.
[That gets a laugh, and a tug on one of Iggy's curls.] More so the restraints, but sure, if that's your kink.
That's not one of my things, don't worry. [He has a very thoughtful look on his face, still playing with Iggy's hair.] I know you are. But it's -- less casual, I suppose. For me. I know that doesn't make a lot of sense. I can get very intense, and I didn't want to make it...too much.
I want you to want it too. [Corry chuckles, kissing Iggy's gross sweaty forehead again.] That's the best part. I don't want you to do it just to make me happy, you know? I want you to do it because it'll drive you nuts if you don't.
That's not the same thing. [He's gentle about it, though, tracing his fingers in little looping patterns on the back of Iggy's neck.] Feeling alive and enjoying something is all very well and good, but there's -- a lot of trust in kink. A lot of surrender. It can go badly very easily.
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[He nods.]
Very good, thank you.
...you know. You're really very good to me. I owe you whatever you want.
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His expression softens a bit -- goes a little sad.] Not everything is transactional, love. Sometimes I do things because I want to. Not because I expect you to pay me back.
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[He catches that look and immediately feels awful.] Sorry. It's not you. It's me. I'm just... used to it.
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[Corry shakes his head, putting the lid back on the soup and moving to settle beside Iggy again.] No, babe, don't be sorry. I know, remember? I know.
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Yeah. But. Ugh.
...I have always made other people happy. I think maybe it's why I'm good at what I do. So it's weird to not like... reciprocate. Or something.
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[But he gets it. He remembers.] I like taking care of you. That's reciprocation for me. Think of it that way?
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Sorry.
Yeah? Okay. I can handle that. You're very good at it.
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A sigh.] Did you ever see 50 Shades of Grey?
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Jesus, Corry, I thought you meant you had a medical fetish!
[He looks at Corry reproachfully.]
You've never asked me to do that stuff.
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Because it's a commitment. It's -- marriage level shit. [He smooths Iggy's hair back, thoughtfully.] But if you mean just -- kinkier things, I wasn't sure if you'd be interested.
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...oh. [A rarity: he goes pink.]
Corry. I can do kink. I'm a professional. Just like... don't shit on me, otherwise whatever.
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That's not one of my things, don't worry. [He has a very thoughtful look on his face, still playing with Iggy's hair.] I know you are. But it's -- less casual, I suppose. For me. I know that doesn't make a lot of sense. I can get very intense, and I didn't want to make it...too much.
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[Iggy falls quiet, just staying where he is, thinking. When he speaks again his voice is soft.]
No, that makes sense. And I actually appreciate and admire your boundaries.
But if you ever feel comfortable enough, I'll do that for you no problem. I don't think you can do anything to me that I can't handle.
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[He falls quiet again.]
I don't not want it. I like anything that makes me feel alive.
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I mean... I let you come over.
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[Another forehead kiss. Iggy's gonna get sick of them.] All right, we'll talk about it. When you aren't deathly ill, because you need to rest.
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