[What is he afraid of? What does he think is going to happen?
Meeting Corrigan's eyes and having to put words to what he's feeling makes Kurt realize that his fears are more amorphous than he thought. What is he supposed to say? That he's afraid he's a queer? That he's afraid he'll like having sex with Corrigan, and that he'll get found out? Just being naked in front of the man is completely mortifying. Is he afraid because his body is exposed, every ill-fitting and badly made inch of it? Is he afraid Corrigan will hurt him for not being good enough? Or that not being good enough will get him tossed aside? How does he even begin to verbalize that?
His lips quiver as he tries to do what he's told. As painful and humiliating as this is, the thought of being disciplined dwarfs everything else.] I... I don't like this. I d-don't like this, I— I'm no good at it, I don't wanna be like this. I'm n-not... [Kurt's jaw stiffens in Corrigan's grip. His throat starts closing up.]
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Meeting Corrigan's eyes and having to put words to what he's feeling makes Kurt realize that his fears are more amorphous than he thought. What is he supposed to say? That he's afraid he's a queer? That he's afraid he'll like having sex with Corrigan, and that he'll get found out? Just being naked in front of the man is completely mortifying. Is he afraid because his body is exposed, every ill-fitting and badly made inch of it? Is he afraid Corrigan will hurt him for not being good enough? Or that not being good enough will get him tossed aside? How does he even begin to verbalize that?
His lips quiver as he tries to do what he's told. As painful and humiliating as this is, the thought of being disciplined dwarfs everything else.] I... I don't like this. I d-don't like this, I— I'm no good at it, I don't wanna be like this. I'm n-not... [Kurt's jaw stiffens in Corrigan's grip. His throat starts closing up.]